Darcey Silva, star of the TLC reality show 90 Day Fiance, has begun her search for love on the third season of the show’s spinoff Before the 90 Days, with a businessman from Britain named Tom Brooks. But her relationship with model Jesse Meester, who appeared on the first two seasons of the spinoff, has not exactly gone missing from Silva’s life.

Silva claimed Meester asked that she participate in mediation to resolve their dispute and possibly reignite their relationship. According to Darcey, Meester tried to “win her back” after he broke off their relationship on the television program. Meester has not responded to the allegations levied against him and instead, posted pictures of his vacation with his new girlfriend on Instagram.

In the days leading up to the premier of Before the 90 Days, Meester shared a picture of the two of them on the beach. Those who have followed Meester and Silva’s relationship noted it was odd for Meester to not comment on something Silva had said. They often had back-and-forth exchanges on social media throughout their on-again off-again relationship.

Silva claims that despite not participating in the request for mediation, she was looking for closure that never happened. She wants to let it going and acknowledged she had never get the answer she wanted. According to Silva, “You’re never going to get the closure you want in a relationship like that.”

Critics of Silva claim that mediation could have given her such closure, but others point out that if the goal was to reunite, as Silva claims Meester wanted to do, that would have made participation in mediation difficult.